The Right Brain's
my main domain.
Except

nine to five
Mon through Fri
first cube on the left,
sigh.

The Bachelorette, Season 5, Episode 7

Reid's family was awesome, probably the most normal of the family date bunch. Kiptyn's family seemed snobby and uptight. Why in the world did they make Jillian do that awkward "indoctrination" lasagna tasting?! Does ABC make these poor people do these things?? Jesse's family was cute, a tad on the hillbilly side perhaps, but I think Jillian felt really comfortable with them. (and Jesse's bro should get a haircut, eh? You can't even see where his hair ends and his face begins). Michael's family was so fun!! They are all just as goofy as him! Not to mention his twin is pretty cute. 'cuz DUH, he looks like Michael : ) But you gotta admit.. when Jillian and Michael kissed, it was pretty awkward I think for everyone involved. Ultimately, Michael is cute and fun, but a bit too young for Jillian's taste.

WES!!! OMG, I can't articulate into words how annoyed I am. Ok, actually I can. First of all, what kind of family was that?? 2 random looking "mothers," and 3 Paris Hilton-wannabes (all looking the same age no less?) My theory: he hired the "mom/stepmom" duo off craigslist, and his "sisters" are in reality, his girlfriend Laurel and her clueless sidekicks. Man, he is ridiculous. Plus, why does Jillian get all sappy and googly-eyed around him? I've never seen a shred of chemistry between them and he's definitely a painkiller or pot junkie. He has no intellectual depth whatsoever, and why, I repeat WHY did ABC allow him to play that STUPID song again? Chris Harrison lied when he said in his blog that he would appease the viewers' requests to stop airing Wes' cheesy song. Not cool Chris!

Jake!! I refuse to believe that he is a "psycho back stabber" or whatever Wes called him. We all know Jake is infatuated with Jillian, but I can't see him going through all that to confront Wes if he was trying to put one past us. I think everyone knows Wes is a phoney baloney.

Oh yes, and Jake cried. No, I mean, he SOBBED, for the world to see. Now, as much as it pulls at our heartstrings to see a guy cry, you gotta admit that its rare. And for Jake to howl and let loose like that on camera makes one wonder if a.) He is trying to milk the "sensitive boy" image so he can be the next bachelor. b.) He is mentally tormented and can't control his emotions. (next, we'll hear that he blew himself up outside her house with a note falling from his lifeless hand: "You should've given me the rose.") or, c.) He is gay. Of course, we don't want to believe that.. but you never know.

Ok, so ED. I know we all liked Ed when he was initially on the show. But his whole coming back to the show and saying "I made a mistake" thing seems a little like a set-up. I think ABC probably asked him to come back to hype up the drama at this rose ceremony. Didn't Ed seem distant and awkward when talking to Jillian? Nevertheless, she ate it all up. Jeez, trying to find authenticity in this show is like pulling teeth. But, hey we love it.

Rose ceremony: BLAH. I'm really sad that Micheal and Jesse were sent home. I guess I didn't see either of them really fitting the bill, but it is obvious that both men are 10 times more genuine than Wild Wild Wes.
Jillian didn't seem all that sad to see them go though.

The only reason I'm not boycotting this show is because I think Jillian KNOWS Wes is a joke. She knows that Kiptyn and Reid will be her top two, so she's allowing ABC to keep Wes around purely for dramatic purposes. Whatevs. Wes, you stink. You are the epitome of a crappy dude. Go AWAY.

P.S.- It must be hard to meet the guys' families. So many of them at least claimed to like Jillian and see her being "part of the family." Not to mention, she met grandmas and little cousins, (come on, why bring innocent gramma into this reality cheesedoodleness?) plus grinded with Jesse's mom and alcoholed it up wherever she went. So once rejected, the befuddled bachelor/son/brother/grandson needs to go home with the bad news. I think emotionally its not nice to put all these people through this. I think ABC should cut down the hometown dates to just the top two bachelors.

P.P.S. Didn't Jillian's dress at the rose ceremony look creepily similar to the dress Melissa wore in the season finale of The Bachelor last year?

The Bachelorette

Stay tuned for a recap of the Bachelorette after tonight's show..

Pattern of Un-Regret

"you'll know when love is true"
is all too cute, but
without further
ado-
such an over-rated
mis-interpretated,
self-initiated,
sacramentally insulting
crapshoot
of a thought

It's cyclical,
punctually pervasive.
not evasive though, I craved it.

like clockwork, I meet men
who move me
in some wistful way,
seem to mirror my ideals
and muse me.
make me smile silly-
soothe me.
until its best
they lose me

this one, I thought, "the best."
his soul i thought, was sure
controlled, concerned, carefree
at least the parts
he let me see.

then motion chokes,
I'm daunted.
stagnancy
demotes
promise like
a joke
not wanted.

Something broke
in time
despite our
cosmic jive..

he gave me butterflies.

though convo,
casual at best.
cloudy-with a chance of
deception
I might suggest

blithe chemistry was blinding
inviting
make me, hate me, hurt me , irk me

I'm a contender to myself

ruthless, it seems.

convince me that
committing is
cliche
that tired nights
and lies
would make me stay

high eyes
linger
without a fight-
lack desire to keep the fire
alive

mediocre passion
de-completes me
could not secure me
satisfy me sanctify me
caress me
forever.

I trusted for a time
that it was right
but I think in spite of that
I'm worth
the fight.

My faith relies, forgets
that love is not complex

Guilty of a hopeful heart, I digress.

senses fail when I falter-
but no regrets.

Note

"An Eclectic Triumph of Words.. "

I like that. That phrase.
Remember to use it later.. Somewhere.
Somehow,
over the rainbow maybe.
with a crossbow in tow, totally.
kiss chaos under mistletoe uncontrollably.
vengeance my verbs I'm wordy wishwash jumbledom.